Jokeshopbeard- I have not read your last post yet, it is 301am and i have work tomorrow, i know you put time into typing it so i want to make sure i give it equal time to read it, don't want to rush through that as i am sure there is some very helpful insight there, your a wise man. Will respond to that later in the day hopefully
divinu- The answer to your first question is in my previous novel of a response lol, it will be easier if i copy/past it
blinx said:
I am not a religious man so i have no god or church to turn to. My family is wonderful and loving but they cannot understand me in regards to these complicated topics. I had one friend who i could speak to about these sort of things but he passed away, i had a second friend as well but her and i no longer speak for various reasons. With that said despite having a large loving family and more wonderful friends than any man can hope for i still am left with somewhat a sense of emptiness or incompleteness. At first i confused these feelings with loneliness but it is not that. I am not lonely at all, more so i feel incomplete and im trying my hardest to forge forward and become a better man.
As i mentioned in the post right above this most of my female friends actually really appreciate this, however i never considered that perspective you mention about me invading there space, i see now in the past i have been guilty of that with 1 girl in particular but the rest it has always been welcome. Thank you for that bit of insight, i know see this topic from 1 more perspective, the more perspectives i can see it from the closer i will be to the truth
And about kissing i am Persian, we too do this, but since we are in America now we only do this amongst family
PaulJ- No i don't stare at other people, i consider it rude, unless i am admiring something about them, perhaps there clothing or an interesting hairstyle etc, then i make sure to give them a bit of a smile so they know it is not a hostile stare.
Thank you everyone for contributing. Someone asked what i do if someone does stare at me for more than 2seconds? Well i usually try and be civil and ignore it, often times i will give them the deathstare to make them realize i am aware and it is not welcome, they usually look away immidiately, on a few occasions it has escalated to something verbal in which i have asked the person "can i help you with something?" they usually say no and walk off. Though i don't look intimidating i do not fear confrontation when most people do, i have no problem asking a strange what the hell he is looking at, and when the see that confidence they usually get nervous. Again i don't know why they were staring in the first place, i just want them to stop, i don't to kick someones ass over it or make a scene in public etc...